0406

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Tracks

Running along the white lines on a red cushioned tarmac gives me a sense of power, endurance and the prevalence of human spirit.

The world as I know it, becomes smaller. I remind myself to focus on my heartbeat. With all the determination and strength that my legs can muster, I push forward with the wind on my back.

Already, I can feel my abdomen contorting like knots in a rope. Beads of perspiration roll incessantly across my face. The heat dances on my flesh. I feel like I'm breathing through a straw.

Suddenly a wave of nausea strikes and I hurl all over the grass.

It has been too long since I ran. (I should've known that the tracks never end.)

Cry

Honestly, I don't know why I shed tears at the theater of arts during the screening of miyazaki's animation. It just happened.

No child should die from starvation, its just so horrible. Perhaps I broke down because the little girl reminded me of my youngest sister.

It was so embarrasing, that I had to excuse myself and get some fresh air. I feel so dumb for being such a crybaby.

Feelings Insincere

I wish sometimes that I didn't find out about things. That they were left as secrets.

I used to have this good friend. One day, I found out that he cheated me with some change. It totally soured my respect for him. It was just stupid chump change. WHY did he have to do something fuc**ed up like that and jeopardize our friendship?

And my Mary Jane. The girl whom I had a crush on, a long time ago. Why did I have to find out that she was going out with my classmate? (on the very day that I had decided to confess my true feelings?)

I don't know...maybe I'm better off having no emotions. Then nothing can hurt me anymore.

PS: There's a stupid cockroach flying around the house. Why did I have to see this pest so late at night??? Now I can't sleep in peace knowing that it could crawl all over my face when I'm unconscious.

Constantine

Somehow when I agreed to watch 'Constantine' with the others, I didn't think eventually I'd be the one organising it. Groan*

How's my review of Constantine? It didn't fare that badly but it wasn't great either. Keanu Reeves can't act. It's painfully obvious. Rachel Weisz was sublime though in comparison.

Keanu tried to emulate dark humour but his timing sucks. He's definitely no comedian. The punchines weren't effective for me although my friends thought otherwise. Sure he's got the deadpan face but I'm laughing more at his poor acting.

I've got to admit though, Keanu can make any hero cool. He's got that handsome mug and ever since The Matrix, he's been elevated to the status of 'the one' action hero everyone wants to see. (I thought he was better in Speed but that's just me.)

Score

That was faster than I had anticipated. Yup, the new ball has found its home on the roof of Blk L. Courtesy of Anthony who by the way did a smashing volley. Sighs* it has merely been less than a day since i bought it too.

Ballistic

Talking about soccer, I just purchased a new ball. Against my better judgment of course. I mean, remember what happened to the other ball. It landed on the roof twice and dreadfully, it's staying there permanently now. -_-"

I know that this ball will inevitably suffer a similar fate if we continue to play at the 6th level of blk L. Guess it'll be only a matter of time. And I didn't even get reimbursed for the lost ball. Ack! Moreover, this ball costs more than the previous. *weeps...

Benched

Haidar had asked me today; How did I feel, being single? (and never having the experience of ever being attached.) I don't really remember what I had replied to her then.

But now that I'm thinking more about it though - the question inadvertantly had me recall an incident which happened 11 years ago.

I remember a soccer trial and an interclass soccer competition. It was a very exciting time for us as we had just completed our exams and these(competitions) were exclusive to Primary 5 students only. The Physical Education (P.E) teacher had set up a trial for us and everyone had a chance to have a spot kick from the penalty box.

I was waiting eagerly for my turn. I paced to and fro. The adrenaline rush was unbelievable. Unfortunately I was the last person in line and somehow the P.E teacher had a lapse in the order. He totally forgot about me. Of course I was livid and dumbstruck.

What about me? I haven't shown what I can do! I have so much to give. This is so unfair!

I cried and cried. It was pathetic. My best friend consoled me and said that he would somehow convince the others to give me a substitute's role. It never happened.

In anger, I cursed the team. I hope you rot you stinkers. Hope you lose big time.

Then I watched gleefully from the sidelines as my class was decimated/humiliated/humbled by their opponents. What have I done? I had condemned my friends solely out of spite and envy.

Maybe that's how I feel. Because that's what my subconscious is telling me.

Get the hint?

There was this rather unnerving moment in the printing shop, which I had chosen for my assignment (Digital Imaging). The lady, whom I presumed to be the proprietor, was seating at the counter. So I told her that I wanted two A3 full colour printouts. She obligingly took it upon herself to attend to my files. She advised me to outline the fonts which could be a potential problem for prints. Then she was trying to align the tilings when she saw the outline of my layout.

"You drew Stanley yourself is it?"

"Yes."

She gave a curt nod and blatantly remarked,"Not bad..."

"Oh My Holy!"©ResEvil: 0406. All Rights Reserved.

I was taken aback. Whoa she's rather opinionated. But that isn't the crux of my rather inept post, readers. She said those words like it was extracted directly from a fantasy script.

Let me enlighten you. Remember those scenes about the hero acquiring new powers and he rushes to meet his all powerful foe...like Star Wars Ep 5 for instance.

Luke having gained some clairvoyance, had seen a premonition of his friends being held captive. Finally when he rushes headlong to Darth Vader, he's like, "Not bad, Obi Wan has taught you well."

Well okay, I know he didn't say those words exactly but you get the gist. I hope.

PS: I am quite nuts. Btw Happy Valentine's Day to all you horny lovebirds out there. LOL

Scratched Pride

Maybe I shouldn't have lent Zero my racquet. Even though it was considerably old and worn out, it wasn't in bad shape. I'm upset that he went to deliberately kick and then scratch the paint on the frame. Hey c'mon!...I've never treated your tennis racquets with such irreverent attitude.

Seeing the badminton racquet in that poor condition reminded me of a time long ago, when a boy, 12 years old had wild dreams of becoming a professional shuttler. He had sweet memories of playing with his arch-rival/best friend and inimitable doubles partner. There was also the pain and anguish of losing the inter school tourney. Not forgetting, the joys of being champions of the interclass badminton competition. Oh yeah and then there was also the selection trials. The bitter taste of rejection and acknowledgement of acceptance. All of this etched on one stupid cheap out-of-production racquet.

If you can't even respect that...then you're not a sportsman. Never was and never will be.

So what and I going to do with that stupid racquet? I'm going to hang in my room and retire it cause it's too precious to let some ignorant person destroy it.

I'm Lovin' It?

Wen Ping says NO. lol. This is actually a pic taken from a short movie clip. If anyone is interested in viewing, I can send it to you.

Resident's Evil

Oops I did it again. I woke up late and arrived at Mac one hour late. We were suppose to shoot our Resident Evil movie today.

Not many people turned up for the filming(Actually there were only 4, including me). Only Yanashi (Shan Shan), Catherine and Anthony was there at Mac's. We tried waiting for Jonathan and Inez who earlier mentioned that they would be available. But finally,(after our impatience grew thin) we made a mutual decision to go ahead without them. Maybe they woke up late?

We walked towards Blk L and marched up(The lift was under maintenance) to the 6th level. According to the script, that was the first location . Unfortunately, the doors are locked and some man confirmed it rather cockily.

Shan Shan ran all the way to Blk R to check whether the floors were asscesible. Nope -no such luck. We lingered around the lift which was undergoing maintenance(3rd level Blk L) and shot it from inside. Cat and Shan Shan had an idea. This situation , would be ideal for a scene. Later we tried shooting the corridor of the SIT computer labs when suddenly the cleaning lady opened the door with her pass and we had entry!

Amazing. The rooms were spookily empty, the computers were flickering. Even our footsteps echoed with dread. Pefect. I don't want to reveal what actually happens in the movie, you'll have to see it.

However I can tell you, that I had tremendous fun filming Resident Evil: Game On. Even when Anthony and Catherine had to leave due to their squash training, we managed to overcome the limited manpower and finish the first episode. (Jonathan joined us at 11pm cause he had in fact woke up late. Zero on the other hand had assisted us after his game of tennis)

Shan Shan was having a great time directing and sharing her vision. I'm glad I was there to experience that. She was bursting with energy and confidence.

Interview with the apathetic

I had my interview with Mr Leo (Class Mentor) today at 2.30 pm. I waited listlessly outside room L.431. Waiting for him to end his discussion with Catherine. He didn't know that I was there SO he had a lengthy conversation with her right up to 3pm(It must've been amusing for the IT students to see a boy standing outside a room like he was being punished...lol). Then, he saw me when he was just about to lock the room.

I don't really know how to say this but I think he was intimidated by my 'expressionless' and apathetic look. The first thing he told me was that I looked tense. Without skipping a beat I replied rather nonchanantly that I was like this all the time. (Imagine my deadpan voice and face saying that...) My replies were so monosyllablic that he wrapped up the interview after 10 mins. Gawrsh...I think he would have a better time plucking weeds than talking to a guy like me.

FYI: I always adopt an extremely serious rigour(and my body instinctively bears a attentive posture) when I'm speaking with someone of authourity or a stranger. It's how my mind and body reacts...heh I'm so weird. Sorry Mr Leo.

Departure - Soccer Ball

Ms Gail is very perceptive. I don't know how she does it but she's very good at reading her student's personality through their drawings. Just like Mr Teh. Amazing. On top of that, she's always encouraging us to do better and giving constructive criticisms.

Ms Jessie, on the other hand, has this boundless energy and is a very enthusiastic. She doesn't seem to tire of students asking her endlessly about their work. She's also very forgiving and has a quirky sense of humour.

They are, without a doubt in my mind, two teachers that I highly admire and respect.

Gosh...history does repeat itself. Yaoguang punted my soccer ball onto the roof from the lvl 6 quadrangle.Just last week, Jonathan laid a screamer on the ball and it fell directly into the balcony. Well, at least it didn't drop onto a car and wreck it...like how Haidar's misplaced kick almost threatened to do so. (Wee Leong grasped it at the very last moment - with one hand!)

Yanashi's (Shan2) script was very entertaining. She's planning to shoot it too. I'll just have to see how things progress...

Supergirl

Kara: Supergirl. I tried drawing the cover of DC's Superman/Batman #13 using forms. They always use dynamic poses for the covers. Hmmm, good practice. Michael Turner is talented. In fact all publishing illustrators are skilled...sobs* I want to be as good as them some day...

I dream, I can run
Like the wind and be strong
When my heart just wants to give in

Somebody give me a tissue already.